Am I a shitty person?

I'm thinking right now I really am. I feel really very much like a bad human being. Like I expect everything to just fall in front of me. Like my interest in most post modernism is because I am way to lazy to go bother and read all of the history of philosophy. And it must be infinitely more vast and important, that I am a utter prick, undeniable.  That I like being able to see everyone when they are talking makes me a huge asshole, that I seriously messed up in the last few weeks in my feminist philosophy class.   I think it might just be one exposure of the overall issue of who I am. How did I become such a bad person? I can see reading this and thinking of me as a bad person, I think that might be true.